For the Little Ones

Calendar - Feb for Ollie ©Ashley Loseth PhotographyHello everyone! For the month of February I have been trying to raise money for the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit at the Saskatoon Royal University Hospital through sales of my February calendar photo. If you recall, I took the photo during my calendar project in 2014 after my nephew’s passing. Oliver was born premature and had spent his short life in the hospital — I will make the donation in his name. My nephew, August, was born premature last year and was also taken care of in the NICU. Today he is a healthy baby, living at home with his Mom, Dad, and big brother Odin.

So this is how redbubble works; each product they sell has a set manufacturing fee, and the artist can set their margin — the default is 20% (as is my own). Every cent I make from sales of “February (for the little ones)” will go to the NICU in the beginning of March. The photo is available on many different products, all of which are very well made. If you are interested in helping, as well as owning a unique product, please check it out in my redbubble shop at http://ashleyloseth.redbubble.com !

As always, your support is greatly appreciated! ^-^

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Update

It’s been a long time since I’ve posted anything at all, so I just decided to briefly update everyone on what’s up with me. I am still very much in love with photography, but still not sure what I love to photograph style-wise. What is my look? And do I even like it? I realize the saying “every artist is their own worst critic” is at least 98-99% true, and I am no exception. Is there any part of me left that even enjoys portraits anymore? At this point, I have no answer. That’s why I no longer advertise my willingness to take portraits — I’m just not willing. Inspiration does come back in waves, but each time it goes, a smaller piece is left behind. I hoped the calendar project would cure this. I hoped having actual studio gear would solve some issues. And I hoped buying my new camera would help bring me back to life. Maybe these things are helping in minuscule ways that may build up over time, but I suppose it’s too soon to say. I have yet to post a single photo from my new camera. This is the first time I’ve even mentioned it. The thing is, I don’t have any intention of making photography a career. I’m nowhere near where I want to be, and even if I get there, I think it will always be a hobby for me. And that’s a good thing. A hobby is something I can be passionate about, but let it rest when I need to. A job is something I need in order to survive. Every time I hear someone say I need to do what I love for a living, or hear that quote saying I will never work a day in my life, I feel worse. I feel guilty. I wonder if I even love it at all. And I do, but anyone alive is subject to doubt.

I find hope in artists like Ken, of Pursuing Wabi and Hai of Notes of Nomads. The reason is simple: their work, though quite different, is free. I found them both because of Japan, but that’s not why I follow them now. It’s not even the travels they document that make them free. There is no explaining it, really. The word, “free” is all you need. I find hope in them, because I see in their work traces of my own mind. Which brings me back to the question — What is my look? What is my style? Following several different photographers gives me hope as much as it can stunt me*. Ken embraces “happy accidents” — he told me this once, when I commented about a picture that was so wonderful you actually feel the heat of it. It was in the colours, the saturation, and the blur. When I see similar accidents, I tend to discard them. Even if I like them. I am bound by the fear of others not understanding. Whether or not others actually like it is irrelevant. I value criticism when it is productive, but it rarely ever is, so I’d rather avoid it. I do this subconsciously and I’ve only noticed recently. So by following those who are not afraid of what they like — or at least try not to be — I am left with the hope that I can be unafraid as well.

Finally, I want to thank those of you continuing to follow me, despite my lack of content. I do have quite a bit to write about/pictures to post in the future. In some cases I just have to find the words.
Thanks again,
Ashley

*By stunt me, I just mean that stunning imagery and talent can make that self-criticism creep out. It’s not always a setback, but can be if I let it.

Nepal Earthquake Relief

As many of you know, disaster relief is kind of important to me, and you probably know about the earthquake in Nepal. I wanted to post about this, because every little bit helps. As usual, there are many ways you can donate — your national Red Cross (click here for Canadian), Global Giving, and you can even help by purchasing these stickers via the LINE app!

Thank you for helping!
-Ashley

Calendar Project: August – December

I’ve been taking my calendar photos every month, but putting off posting (obviously) 😦 There’s really no reason for it, I’m just a horrible procrastinator and photo-chooser. To be honest there are a couple I’m not fond of at all.. partly because I’ve been staring at them for so long, and because most months were forced due to total lack of inspiration (and time off work). So without further ado, here is the last of my project photos!

August

Calendar Project: August ©Ashley Loseth Photography

September

Calendar Project: September ©Ashley Loseth Photography

October

Calendar Project: October ©Ashley Loseth Photography

November

Calendar Project: November ©Ashley Loseth Photography

December

Calendar Project: December ©Ashley Loseth Photography

November and March are my least favourite over all; whereas, February and December are the two I’m most proud of. One because it fuels my heart and the other, my need for nostalgia. I’m both sad and happy that my project is finished. I chose to do it in order to challenge myself and some months that’s more than what it was… but in the end I’m glad I did it and I think I can be proud of the result!

I also realized today that I never posted January’s photo! I completely forgot! So here it is — the final (and first) piece…

January

Calendar Project: January ©Ashley Loseth Photography

You’ll be able to find the calendar in my redbubble shop very soon!!

Calendar Project: June and July

Finally! I meant to have these up hours ago!
These are both a little green. You may have noticed that I love nature photos… but I did try not to repeat the same pattern every month. I thought Spring and Summer would be easy, but after a while every leaf (branch, cloud, garden gnome.. etc) starts to look the same, even if they are drastically different in reality. Anyway, here they are…

June – Lady bug
Calendar Project: June ©Ashley Loseth Photography

July
Calendar Project: July ©Ashley Loseth Photography

I definitely prefer June out of the two. I got a lot of photos in July, but most of the time I was experimenting and not really liking what I was coming up with. I like this one, but I wish I could have gotten a good picture of the blue jay I was stalking that day… oh well!

Pictures Soon // Mighty Long Fall and then some

Ok so I’ve been busier than I would like to be lately, but I do have June and July photos waiting to be posted. I’m determined to make time tomorrow to finish them up. My poor July photos have been stuck in my camera for a while now… so I will definitely post again tomorrow!

Now I need to talk about ONE OK ROCK for a bit…
I think I love these guys even more now that I’ve seen them in person, I’ve known from the first moment I heard them that they have something special. And Taka has this way of making people understand regardless of their native language. The first song of theirs I heard was Et cetera (live), my favourite to this day. I choked back a slew of emotions — I knew this song fit me at that time in my life, even though I only understood a fraction of the lyrics. I felt what he felt, through his tone and expressions. The song ends with a painful whisper, “bye bye” — and it was simultaneously the cherry-on-top and the nail in my coffin.
Since then they’ve been releasing gem after gem, getting better all the time. Last year I shared their song, “Be the Light”, released on the second anniversary of the Great East Japan Earthquake and Tsunami… I still can’t listen to it without getting teary. That album also consisted of; “The Beginning” (the end theme for the hit film, Rurouni Kenshin), “Clock Strikes”, and “Deeper Deeper”. This week their new song, “Mighty Long Fall” (the end theme for the Rurouni Kenshin sequels) was released along with “Decision” and “Pieces of Me”. I have officially heard them all and my ears are nothing but pleased ^-^ I’m in love with the lyrics to “Mighty Long Fall”, so naturally I have decided to share it with all of you here. Enjoy ^-^d

They make it harder and harder for me to have a small list of favourites.. I mean, if they’re all faves, then at some point they cancel each other out, desshou?

As a bonus I will also share a video of Et cetera (I couldn’t gush about it that much and NOT share). This is not the first one I saw back in the day, but it is my favourite version now. I kind of wish this didn’t have subs, that way more of you would have a better chance of feeling the same way I do… but oh well.